The New Year is HERE!

I don't have much to say right now but I am really feeling this new year. With the new puppy and baby on the way all I really have right now is thanks for the gifts in my life.

Ugh I missed this... I totally want to go next year!

Weihnachtsfest - Biwabik's Winter Lighting Festival - held the first Saturday in December, has been part of the town's holiday tradition for the past 18 years. Activities commence at 11 a.m. with a children's musical presented by area youth. You can stroll down Main Street checking out craft tables at the local church, Senior Center and the Bavarian-themed City Hall Complex.Near the town's Carl Schuster Memorial Park, step up to the Weihnachtsfest Candy Haus, where boxes of homemade sweets are for sale. You can also purchase tickets here for horse-drawn trolley rides through town. Lunch at the Park Pavilion features the region's ethnic specialties: sarmas (meat and rice rolled in cabbage leaves), pasties (similar to a hot meat pie) and Italian beef sandwiches - all accompanied by music, perhaps a local polka band or the high school jazz ensemble. Later, browse the bake-sale tables for homemade cookies, cardamom bread and Slavik potica (a walnut-filled sweet bread). At 6 p.m. everyone gathers by the park gazebo to sing carols and watch as the switch is flipped and the entire park is instantly set aglow with sparkling white lights. Afterward, fireworks illuminate the dark winter sky.

I want to learn to knit

Okay so I have been saying this forever and I have absolutely no time on my hands BUT now that I have confirmed that I am pregnant...yep it's true we confirmed it last week. (HOWEVER WE HAVE NOT SHARED THIS INFO WITH ANYONE SO SHHHHH)
I have a feeling I will need to learn how to do something to keep me busy until the day comes that doesn't require me to sand down old furniture and so on. That and I love to sew but it requires me to have a lot to carry around which knitting would not require as much.
Any pointers let me know.

Babies

I wish I could say this outloud however everyone seems to have a big mouth. Jon and I have talked about children many times over the years. There is always someone who wants them and someone who doesn't. We have never been on the same page at the same time with kids. Recently we have decided that we have gotten too old to keep waiting, but I am still scared.
If I start to apply at cop jobs now it could take a year or so, then a year of probation, then a year or whatever off (you don't want to get preggers right off probation). So realistically if I want a career first I would have to wait until I was nearly thirty. Jon just turned thirty and we both feel we are not getting younger. We have been together for over seven years so what's the wait?
I guess I am affraid of becoming a frumpy soccer mom who let's herself go and whines about everything. I know that sounds horrible but most of the women in my family have gone from being moderately sized to huge and I don't want that. I know it sounds pretty vain but it took me years to get my body and my health under control and it is scary to think I could lose that. Again I know it sounds totally vain and selfish.
I would love to have children tomorrow. Mostly I am just scared because it is such a permanent thing...you can buy or sell a house, get married or divorced, but a once you are a parent you are always a parent. I think about kids lots, what their names would be, who they would look like, and I can't help but stop and look at baby clothes.
It's just all so scary